I suppose it's about time I said an actual something, rather than relying on the secret messages I seem to think my pictures send. I'm out of practice at expressing myself with words, and trying to break through the belief that if I say something I want out loud at anything louder than a whisper, I'll jinx it completely.
Things don't really happen for a reason. They simply happen and it's up to your perception whether or not it's good luck or bad luck. to be cliche; hindsight is 20/20. We are able to decide, more powerfully than we think, whether something is good or bad. Thus is it possible to live in bliss all of the time?
I did not get something I really wanted at work today - my job grade will stay the same - despite what I thought was a well reasoned argument. An argument I've been making in my head for over a year. I did not realize until the moment I got the news how very important it was to me, and rather than roll around on the floor and have a tantrum right then and there, I instead gathered storm clouds over my head and wore them all day. I was not happy, and in an aggressively passive way I wanted people to know it. It's a few hours later now and I am chagrined at my behavior and wondering how, next time, I can more quickly and efficiently turn the disappoint around into looking for the good at which I am much better.
Do you see a face in that picture up there? Does she look like maybe she's related to Rosie Jetson? Depending on my mood, sometimes I see a hint of a wry smile. Other times I see feelings of isolation, forever looking away from the thing everyone else pays to see.
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